I’m in need of a retreat. I feel as though life is overwhelming me. It’s not all that strange to check out for a couple days. Folks use retreats all the time in organizational building and psychological healing. Problem is, where do I go on a retreat? I checked out the web page to an eco village close to Lima. I had heard about it when I happened by the Krishna temple in town. The photos showed a cool looking place with gardens full of beautiful vegetables, opportunities to volunteer in the community and many yoga and mediation classes. But it looks friendly and loud, and the thing is, I really just want to be alone with my thoughts, my yoga mat, my ukulele and discipline. I’ve heard discipline described as embracing your own burning desire to know yourself through learning, creating and expressing the spirit and animation of your own existence.
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You surrender.
And you find your spirit as reward.
There are many arguments in my mind telling me why I can’t afford to take myself out of the distance communication of the web and phones and into the present moment. I feel like somehow as my distance self is so tentatively constructed, nothing but memories and bits of paper flying through the air, I must also argue that my present self is equally tentative. It is easy to misplace this self and get caught in routine or lost in ego.
And so I came to post directions to my spiritual retreat of one… my home. If you don’t know where I live, I’m sorry but I’m out of communication. For those who know my home, please, don’t stop by. I am trying to know myself.
I’ll return with the full moon.
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